Where I’m Supposed to Be


It is sort of weird, the patterns of my productiveness. At times, I want to quit. At others, I want to give it my all. It can be stressful to never feel the same way all the time.

I am aware that everyone feels this. I just want to whine about my frustrations.

I hurt my hand at one of my jobs and it comes at a time where I can’t miss days at work, but here I am, stuck at home, with a raging urge to finish all the tasks I can.

And life made me pause

I wrote that small piece this morning, headphones ready with my favorite writing music, no dogs distracting me, but this incessant noise from downstairs.

I was in my moment, but apparently, my moment wasn’t then.

I was slightly frustrated. I haven’t had much focus lately and I was in such a zone, even though I hurt my hand.

My mood has been pretty relaxed since I quit serving and all though I was “in the zone”, it was apparent my moment wasn’t then.

I took that cue and went on with my day making aprons for my Etsy store and filling my social media with dog posts and marketing.

As I lay here, writing, preparing my mind for my busy work week, I pause to think about what moment will be mine.

My best friend reminds me I am exactly where I am supposed to be.

He’s right.

I will write when I am supposed to. I will finish a chapter of my book in the same matter. I will upload podcasts and schedule more when I am supposed to.

The same goes for my life.

I am exactly where I need to be even if it’s not where I want.

I have all that I need, even if it isn’t perfect.

I have friends who love me for all that I am, even though I am flawed.

I have all these tasks and I am happy to accomplish them when I’m supposed to.

I get so caught up with the whirlwind of life, it is often hard to stop and tell myself to look around and appreciate where I am supposed to be.

As always, thank you for reading.

Below is a link to my podcast. It’s very new; the second episode. I am not really sure how to podcast, but I’m going to give it a shot. I have plenty of people to interview and all of them love to drink, so it should be fun. This podcast is an extension of this blog and what it stands for, so I will talk about anything.

https://anchor.fm/lilian0/embed

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2 thoughts on “Where I’m Supposed to Be

  1. that is a most excellent start and i see so many ways it could take you. even what you said in this blog could be used.
    i have many snippets of words that i have collected over the years. some are just a couple of words that have really no relationship to each and i have lines, some just one while others are many which again just dead end. i pull the pieces of paper which they are entrusted to out of the box they are entombed from time to time when i have nothing else to do, and see if a spark will light a flame of more words to string together and complete the life they started.

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